Speedbump

It's amazing how your brain suppresses the bad... it's only now that I remember the feeling of uncertainty I had when recording my first album. Will people like it? Am I good enough? Is this even vaguely good? These unfortunate, but natural feelings have come hurtling back in the last week. We've hit the 3rd week slump where we're all getting irritated with each other, where we've decided that we can't play our instruments and that everything we're making is average. Maybe it is... but luckily through some experience I know that its just part of the process.

When I'm creating, I always seem to hit these bumps in the road. I get so caught up in my work that I lose perspective. It feels like I'm working in a vacuum. I can't decide whether what I've done has any relevance or if I'm even enjoying the process! Maybe it's a something that I need to go through in order to scrutinize my work to a point where it becomes obsessive, and unhealthy, and then from that point I can finally let it go and let it be what it is...

There are no rules when creating. You do what you have to to convey your thoughts, feelings and emotions. Some people will love it, others will hate it, others will be unmoved. In the end it doesn't really matter. I enjoy every part of it. Even the phase we're going through now. But only because I know it will be over soon and it'll all come together like the cheesy ending to a Hollywood film.